you know me too well;

belle_disaster3 @ 2007-05-16T21:22:00

2007-05-17T02:26:49Z

oh, I got a new journal.

unencumberdbird
yeah, i didn't really finalize anything yet, but I plan onchanging a couple things and adding them. don't hesitate to add me, because I will eventually get around to it!

I really love my teeth. I went to the dentist today, and I started to understand why it's such a commonality to fear going to the dentist. those harsh silver tools to scrape your teeth make me cringe!

belle_disaster3 @ 2007-05-12T10:44:00

2007-05-12T15:44:40Z

why is this friends only again - nobody bothers to comment.
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belle_disaster3 @ 2007-05-03T21:35:00

2007-05-04T02:36:50Z

i am so disappointed in myself.
something I was eager to get involved in..just down the drain from a STUPID irresponsible mistake.
I really was worth it and I BLEW IT.

belle_disaster3 @ 2007-05-02T23:47:00

2007-05-03T04:48:21Z

skin on face hurts bad.
need to let skin breathe.
can't remember last time it's been this bad.

shia lebouf

2007-05-02T04:53:22Z

and this kid in my health class... that i never EVER talk to. maybe twice.
yes.

I am still alive

2007-03-22T04:27:04Z

I just got my lap top back yesterday. Just in time before I go to New Jersey.
It sucks.
When I sent it away to get a new hard drive (because it wouldn't even turn on etc.), I was incredibly upset because all this money for all these problems is no good for me.
And while I found other things to fill my time, I was more peaceful overall. Now it's back and I don't know how my schedule's going to shift. Mostly for the reason I've been working really hard lately on school work and putting in effort I didn't even know I had in me. My mind adapted pretty quickly to the challenges I've given it.
And now I face yet again a struggle with this piece of shit computer. Why were viruses created in the first place? Now I have to bug my dad or mother about an Anti-Virus program for this because I refuse to let it fall down the drain purely based on the hope that nothing will happen to this lap top.
money money money money..MONEY!
which I've been..spending..alot lately..
I should start saving.
Also since I've been away from technology (including the TV! I mostly only watch on the weekends if/when I have time or when I'm catching up on my DVR) I've gotten my license. pretty exciting.
but I think I'm going to make a shift to start writing in this online journal instead of my tangible one because, well, hand cramps are very upsetting and my fingers are swift.
and I'm also thinking about friends only. and possibly a new journal.
we'll see when I have the time.
also, my ONTD friends, I miss your humor and the community! I gave you up for lent, and I'm having mixed thoughts about it. I think negative and positive thoughts about doing it. someone update me please on how it's been. haven't visited the site since lent started (minus the Britney leaving rehab for the second time..I had a slip-up)

belle_disaster3 @ 2007-02-20T21:07:00

2007-02-21T03:09:11Z

I saw something bad in one of my good friends today. Someone I like and respect. It's weird. They just pissed me off today and they never really do.
But yeah I was sick earlier I am feelin a little better I suppose. Food from Photos SUCKS!!!!!!!!
I don't know what I am giving up for lent?!!? =/ meat? too easy. hurry gimme some ideas

ONTD

2007-02-18T04:56:05Z

I'm taking a break from ONTD
It's starting to get ridiculously pathetic

...I know I will be back though

belle_disaster3 @ 2007-02-09T00:08:00

2007-02-09T06:08:56Z

Aw, I don't write in here anymore! I was looking back at my old entries and I miss it.
I need to be more open in here though.
I mostly just write in my private journal, not online.
I guess this could be interesting.
I'll be making a new LJ quite soon! If I've recently added you, I'll add you on my new name! I can promise you I will be updating more often and commenting to your entries! I miss LJ. I go to communites like ONTD daily, but this just slipped away from me.
I'll let ya know

belle_disaster3 @ 2007-02-09T00:04:00

2007-02-09T06:06:47Z

[Unknown LJ tag]

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-12-14T23:40:00

2006-12-15T05:41:47Z

I think I'm going to use this journal. Or make a new one. I don't know yet. But I want to write whatever I want in it without holding back, so most of it will be private/friends only. So I'll update my new username if I choose to do that. And I will post more because I hardly ever do anymore, but I still read all your entries!!

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-11-19T12:04:00

2006-11-19T18:04:10Z

This computer has gotten faster, but it's still slow.
This is the first time I've been on it in weeks.
But Friday I'm getting a lap-top (with money I've earned, mind you).
Black Friday, my favorite.
Moms with their Levi's pulled to their belly-button with a stack full of coupons in their right hand. It's all about the fight. Not really.
Another thing, it bugs me how all of my friends (except for one inparticular that comes to mind) get whatever they want purchased by their parents. I'm not saying they should have to pay for every little thing by themselves, yet a trip to Woodfield crosses their mind like it's a routine.
I like paying for some things by myself. It gives me the total freedom to buy whatever the hell I want, as opposed to asking if I could get something and then hearing "No."
I'm hoping to earn a lot on my paycheck coming up, yet everytime the taxes get more expensive and I get really pissed. It's like working the extra hours just goes to taxes anyway.
Hey, that's the way it is.
And that's the way it goes.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-10-01T15:46:00

2006-10-01T20:46:39Z

I'm so sick of hating people.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-09-23T22:46:00

2006-09-24T03:56:15Z

Now I have time to do this...I will have a lot of time to do this lately. And spend time with my sister..
I'm getting into arguements with my friends more often. Some are for different reasons but it all comes down to the same thing. People don't respect friendships like they used to. Maybe it's just a phase that happens at this point in life, but I hope that's all it is. I don't feel very many of my friends are 100% loyal. But then again just because you get into arguements doesn't have to be a complete downer on a friendship. I'm all for arguements here and there rather than it being completely unhealthy.
I rarely even talk to one of my old best friends from last year, mostly because they weren't genuine to me at all. I think it's always sad when people drift, but it always ends up happening.
I have to go do laundry cause that's all I'm going to be doing..I think I'm going to be relieved of going back to school on Monday.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-31T17:06:00

2006-08-31T22:06:58Z

show me a CD cover you like or find interesting.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-28T19:57:00

2006-08-29T01:04:22Z

Anywhere But Here was on today. Dontcha be a grumpy gotta be optimistic!
yeah that's good too. But I fell asleep. School's so exhausting. That and running on 7 hours of sleep everyday probably isn't a good idea.
I always wonder what makes people more vulnerable than others, period. And why when teachers hear other people being made fun of, they don't say anything. They just pretend to not hear. Only the good ones say something.
The thing aspired for too far of reach.
I hate these moods. I always try not to get in them. I never really realized as much as I do how much it matters if you're around positive people or not. How much moods rub off people as easily as habits.
I want to cut my hair shorter soon. I always get sick of it being long.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-23T16:56:00

2006-08-23T21:57:03Z

i love school.

its going to be so much better this year. it already is.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-22T20:54:00

2006-08-23T01:57:06Z

no real time to update and i forgot everything i did these past days.
except sunday was sooo much fun. went to chicago with a shitload of people.
and yesterday went to amber's.
today got my nails did. which i never do.
then went to amber's. amber had to leave to go make a skanky hoe sophomore shirts cause i guess they want to be sassy sophomores?
me cody joe and courtney and a water fight. i got the most wet. usually courtney does.
it was cold.
and i still don't know what school's going to be like tomorrow. but i'm not dreading it i suppose.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-17T23:54:00

2006-08-18T05:05:38Z

wowow I never update anymore. I really should. anyways.
early days. woke up at 8. went to get my permit. it was so easy. I just read some of the study guide book while I was waiting and manage to pass. then i went to woodfield and the store. i love going to the store. i just do. i need a job this year and that's a possibility. my cousin wanted to be a bagger at the jewel when she was little. that's funny..most youngins aspire to be a model or something unrealistic like that.
anyways.
then I went with Lindsey to Palatine to change some things on my schedule.
and hers, yeah.
I really wanted to have a class with my sister. women's studies.
but that wasn't the case. so. no.
but now at least I'm not taking consumer's again, that would be uh ridiculous.
so yeah I came home. went to see my g-parents.
and tomorrow i was going to go to six flags but you know how it likes to rain on those days so. i guess i'm going to the football game. i know, i know. I'll probably last a half hour. I just can't watch football. not that anyone really watches the game (cept for those die hard football mamas). and be there and all.
so here's my schedule cause you're dying to know.
lets see if I can remember.
PE (yeah I'm so lucky to have it first again this year), french, womens studies, lunch, algebra 2, earth science, drivers.
yeah i didn't remember. my bad, no. you're bad.
there's no one in my lunch.
yeah i wish i had a faster computer.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-11T01:15:00

2006-08-11T06:26:04Z

Put iTunes/other music player on party mix/ shuffle to get the answers.

1. How am I feeling today?
I Smoke I Drink - Mike Jones

2. Will I get far in life?
So Long Sweet Summer - Dashboard Confessional

3. How do my friends see me?
All Or Nothing - O Town

4. What is my best friend's theme song?
Girl At The Rock Show - Blink182

5. What is the story of my life?
Caramel - City High

6. What was high school like?
Gangster's Paradise - Stevie Wonder lmao gangsta fersure

7. How can I get ahead in life?
Criminal - Fiona Apple

8. What is the best thing about me?
I Shot The Sheriff - Eric Clapton

9. What was today like?
What's Luv? - Ashanti, Ja Rule, Fat Joe and those niggers

10. What is in store for this weekend?
April 26, 1992 - Sublime

11. What song describes my parents?
My Fault - Eminem

12. How is my life going?
Just Lose It - Eminem

13. What song will they play at my funeral
Cocky - Kid Rock

14. How does the world see me?
Belle - Jack Johnson

15. Will I have a happy life?
Slob On My Knob - 36 Mafia

16. What do my friends really think of me?
Fly - Hilary Duff

17. Do people secretly lust after me?
Real World - Matchbox Twenty

18. How can I make myself happy?
Penny & Me - Hanson

19. What should I do with my life?
Just Like A Pill - Pink

20. Will I ever have children?
For You To Notice - Dashboard Confessional

21. What will I name them?
Shake It Off - Mariah Carey

22. Who will I marry?
Ooh La La - Danity Kane

23. Do I have a boyfriend/girlfriend
Hash Pipe - Weezer

24. How will I die?
Yours To Keep - Teddy Stockholm

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-11T00:34:00

2006-08-11T05:35:56Z

I never want to ride in an airplane again.
At least for awhile.
I just saw that movie World Trade Centers, that was shocking.
And then the next day I hear about these fucking terrorists that were planning to bomb.
It's impossible not to hate on people for this.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-01T19:48:00

2006-08-02T01:33:39Z

god I'm looking through my photobuckets.

Now that's a shitload of pictures. I cannot say I'm friends with everyone in these pictures still, but I remem ber what I was doing or where I was at when they were taken. And each one I remember. It's weird how a picture can bring back so much. Looking at some of these was like wow I look different or wow I haven't changed as much as I'd hoped. How some people give up on friendships so easily, how I gave up some friendships so easily. Some I miss a lot, some I'm like eh. But I give up too easily on friends. All I know is that I need to take more pictures.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-08-01T13:18:00

2006-08-01T18:19:14Z

wisconsin was amazing!
I miss the swing hahah.
and everything else..
♥

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-07-26T11:39:00

2006-07-26T16:40:03Z

Ugh I'm thinking about Wisconsin this weekend. And how much my mom's gonna ruin it.
As much as I want to stay positive I have to admit this is gonna suckkkk.

belle_disaster3 @ 2006-07-24T09:51:00

2006-07-24T15:05:26Z

Eh I woke up so early today it was bad. Cause it's so fucking hot, even in my basement. So Saturday Amber + Courtney sleptover. We planned what we gon' do then they left on Sunday. Then I uh dragged ass gettgin ready cause I always do, and fuck Courtney came and I was like nowhere ready oops haha. So we went to the mall and took pictures hahah. Then Alex and all his friends came and went places with them. Then I got home at 10:45 got bitched at (duh cause it's "SOO LATE") maybe cause uh I smelled heheh ;).
So Friday we're leaving hopefully early as hell for Wisconsin and I am sooo excited cause it's always sooo fun and this year maybe hopefully even better. Cause I'm bringing my best friend Amber D =))))).
So Amber H is calling me a lot lately and that's good cause I miss & love her. So we might hangout tomorrow cause she's goin to Gurnee today as usual haha.
I'm really pissed at someone. I haven't talked to them for like 2 days maybe and when I did it wasn't good it was just like she was talking shit, so I got pissed and yeah that was like the end of that. I don't even care too much..well I do I guess but I'm not going to be like crawling back anytime soon or anything.